Haven't posted a blog for awhile, been distracted with preparing to go to court once again to garner therapeutic access to my 14 year old daughter.  Was in court in July on the matter and while I was not declined, I had to meet the disclosure requirements of an old order for information from 2002.  Now I ask, how is that relevant.  But I have come to realize that a Justice can issue an order that is reasonable or unreasonable, depending "aribtrarily" on their opinion in the family courts in Canada.

To say reform is required is an understatement.  For a justice to make a decision on the therapeutic and psychological needs of a child, where there is no physical, sexual or emotional abuse, is really just a matter of opinion.  And frankly, I have come to realize that my kids have no voice whatsoever so essentially my ex-husband, his lawyer and the Justice have decided the needs of my child without any psychological assessments or opinion.  Injustice for both my daughter, my son and myself.

But to fight with a fight will just end in more hate.  So I embarked on a spiritual journey, asking God for help, praying, pleading and more prayer.  That has been a year and sadly, I don't believe God controls the family courts either.

So as I embark on yet another trip to the courtroom in April, armed with dated, stale and dusty disclosure that has NO relevance, I now pray for the strength to deal with what I trust will be more injustice.  Does that make me negative.  Hmmm, I have held out hope for over 8 years, exhausted my net worth, destroyed years of my life and who knows what effect that has had on my children.  Because sadly, the effects of living without a parent may not rear themselves for years when they marry or have their own kids, or get hit with some form of mental illness or addiction.

I say it is the family court system that plays God, and that is a sad statement about justice.